Yesterday, Monday, I awoke to only a .8 pound loss. Needless to say this didn't exactly make me jump up and down with joy. :(
I had an incredibly long, stressful day yesterday. Spent the entire day at the home design center working out details for the new home we are building. This process should be fun and on some level it is, but there have been some hiccups that have made it a bit stressful. The good news is they have broken ground and trenched for the house. I ended up eating my cucumbers and chicken while I was there going over cabinets, granite, lighting, low voltage electrical, tile, etc... I didn't get to eat dinner until 7:00pm. I nearly had a stroke waiting three minutes for my shrimp to cook.
I didn't take the phentermine for the last few days but decided to take it today, half a pill.
I have just been sooo hungry. My hunger wakes me up in the middle of the night. I am going so long between meals it just feels like it can't be good for my health. Today I woke up in tears. When I weighed myself I was up a pound and then after a healthy bm, I was down .2 pounds. I do not comprehend how I can starve myself and not loose more than that and potentially gain.
Today I decided to add egg whites to my diet. I had breakfast, "Oh the humanity!!" LOL !! I swear though, I just can't survive on what I am eating. I understand that my body is supposed to be burning excess fat etc but I just can't wake up in tears from hunger. I know this isn't hunger from boredom or depression or anything like that. My stomach actually growls and churns and I am weak and lightheaded.
What I really want is a giant cup of coffee with light cream or fat free 1/2 & 1/2 and sugar... Hell, I would settle for the wicked stevia in place of the sugar if I could have the cream.
Two and half years ago I managed to loose around 60 pounds in about 5-6 months by eating around 1000-1200 calories a day of sensible, healthy foods(including my daily coffee, but no other calories in the form of beverages). I maintained about a 2/week loss. I kept most of this weight off until the stress hit me this last year and I just gave up. For the last several months I had been eating fast food everyday, drinking soda like it was water and eating fatty deserts with practically every meal. It is no wonder the weight came back on hard and fast. I have only myself to blame for this. I decided to do the HCG to "jump start" and get a good chunk, pardon the pun, of this weight off to motivate me. Eight days in and with all the hunger and such I find myself second guessing this protocol. It is highly frustrating.
On Sunday I cleaned house and organized things around the house. I exerted tons of energy that frankly I haven't been used to doing. I have been out of the gym for ages and I don't work up a sweat that often. I think my body has just said, Hey, you are not fueling me enough for this stuff. I am worried that is is just shutting down and holding on to whatever it has in fear of not getting enough to sustain it. Now it isn't supposed to be doing this because the HCG is supposed to be burning stored fat in my body for energy. Which incidentally is also supposed to make me not hungry....
Needless to say I am curious as to what affect this change to the HCG protocol will have on the scales tomorrow. I just can't live this hungry.
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